Thursday, July 16, 2009

Yet another day dream.

I watch Him playing on the floor

with a ball and all His toys

was He standing on his feet?

yea He surely was all by Himself

He appeared very happy 

just the way He was 

the way He was 2 years ago

He collides into something

and God what I see?

two pencil cells come out

out from His back

springs pop out

out from His back

He will collapse in 30

my sister says

I see Him collapsing

He tumbles into my arms

I match my breaths with His

I match my heart with His

(just the way I used to

I used to 2 years ago

when He refused to sleep

and finally He would find solace

and so would I matching

breath by breath beat by beat

and He would sleep with me)

now He smiles like the Buddha

oh! he wasnt happy with the toys

he wasnt happy with the cells

He gets a life

a life in my arms

his eyes shout to me

shout to me loud

chachaiya I dont like the toys

chachaiya I dont need the cells

just get back my life

just get back my life!

No to beggars!!!!!

I have been averting beggars for a long time now. I just never attend to them. I dont think I have always been like this.(though I do give 'alms' to eunuches just in order to prevent being subjected to their touches and a witness to immoral acts which they are never ashamed of performing in public!) Couple of weeks ago my teacher at english class was telling 'we should help people in need. even our small contributions may bring a day's food to someone. Don't you buy 5-stars and ice creams? Can't you donate the amount you 'waste' in those items to a poor?'

Previously I would look at a beggar then decide whether the person really ought to beg or its just the ease of job which makes him beg, then only i would give him or deny him respectively. So what transformed a philanthrope to a stonehearted person? I overheard my dad once telling to mom that only the person who earns has the right to do public service.(it was in regards to some 'chanda' which mom had to give to local boys for some saraswati puja or similar stuff.) And it really struck me big time. He was absolutely correct, its he who earns working his heart out, who are we to do 'daan-dharm' of that money?(and rise a step closer towards heaven!)

Following that whenever i encountered a beggar his words would ring in my mind-'only the person who earns has the right.............'.So i dint even pay attention to any beggar that day onwards.And i felt rightly so.

Couple of days ago when I was coming out of a sweet and jalpaan griha i came acroos yet another. He appeared to be in his early 80s, was dark skinned, sported thick glasses and was frail. He confronted me and stated his 'raam katha' but my dad's quote overpowered his weak voice.I kick started my bike and released clutch it surged forward crushing the old man's hopes mercilessly. But I,hell, dont know where from a voice instructed brakes to be applied-'Dont you buy 5-stars and ice creams?' Even before the bike could come to stop the beggar had sprinted back and resumed his 'raam katha' and all what God would do if I helped him. I peeked into my purse, I dint have any change.All I had were few 500 notes and a Rs.10 note.

'Baba change nahin hain. phir kabhi.'

'arre dekh na beta'

'nahin hai toh kahaan se doon?'

Then he splayed his 'earning hand'  forward and said

'Beta ye 6-7 rupaiye hai ye le le jo hai wo de de'

Waah! I was astonished. How can he make a deal? Then I thought not a big deal, let me hand him over Rs.10 note and take wat all he has.

'ye lo.'

believe me before my 'lo' was over he had 'confiscated' the note and moved couple of steps backward with the same nimbleness he had shown to get back to my bike!

Ah! Feeling cheated I cursed my mam then myself and then the beggar who 'ironically' was still blessing me from a distance.

Now thanks to that bloody cheat no voice whomsoever is going to overpower my dad's for a long time to come. And am a deaf ear to all the begagars again and more importantly to lectures on helping them!

Sunday, July 12, 2009

A deprived's day dream devastated!


Yesterday in the noon time I caught a nap & was rewarded with a short but very 'sweet' dream.I dreamt that I was walking hand in hand with a girl and she was taking me to her home.We appeared to be a very happy and content couple.I touched her lips and stealithly tasted my finger when she wasnt watching.Yummy!Literally she tasted so sweet or was it her flavoured lipstick?Who cares!I help her jump over a small wall in the way.I could sense that we were very close to her home and alas my dream got shattered by the 3pm alarm Akon 'blaring' Lonely! I m Mr.Lonely! I have no body for my ownnnnnnnnn........! God! Why does it always end at the climax? Cursing my misfortune I leave my bed and true to my nature I come up with a positive-Dont they say day dreams come true???Yippie!

Hmmm! Let me tell you when things appear to be favourable for me I can give any superstition a chance. But if the dream is a sad one I brush it off 'scientifically'.Huh!Just another game of subconscious,partially active mind!

Then I uttered God let it be true and moved on.And forgot it.

Late evening yesterday I was chatting with a beautiful friend of mine just teasing her over childish things ki achanak:-

annonymous- hmmmm

                         u know i love you

                me-wat?  ( i wish i hadnt reacted this way!lol by the time my heart might have done the work of a whole day in a second!)

annonymous-dont panic (y the hell should i panic?lol)

                 me-kidding?

annonymous-nahin (hey bhagwan itna fast processing!kya baat hai!)

                       as a friend yaar! u r so sweet! (sweet??? nahinnnnnnnnn not me it was the girl in my dream who was sweet!)

                 me-by the way why should i panic if someone loves me?(how can i be so  diplomatic in such situations!?)          

annonymous-hmmm if the love is unexpected (ab kaun samjhaye madam ko? arre bhai unexpected hi hai na unwanted toh nahin na!!!!!kaun bataye kaise kaise khwaab yahaan raat toh raat din mein bhi haunt karte hain!) 

As a friend??? Am not so sure about what exactly it means. I have had unpleasant history with the phrase but the circumstances are completely different for sure. Haan 'as a friend' in the latest case really makes me feel very special!                                       

Irrespective of frame and form love is always pure. I respect her for that and also thank her for making my daydream come true regardless of it being partially true! Need to work harder and sleep more frequently in the day time!

Friday, July 10, 2009

NGP-JL non stop!


9pm

"saab parking se nikaal doon kya?"

'naah!'

"city se nikaal doon kya?"

'zarurat hai kya?' in a bit rough manner.

and here am set for non stop Nagpur to Jalgaon 8 hours long drive at night. wow! its heavenly! infact i dont want to go to heaven they dont have cars over there!

right turn from under the aadivasi govari uddaan bridge and here we head towards amravati.jostling for space in the not so thick nagpur traffic.fiat linea fighting neck to neck but i wont let it 'win'.

"saab aaram se!" comes a voice from back seat.

"saab pitaji ka phone aaya tha. bole baarish mein gaadi slip karti hai."

oh! yea! dats some valuable advice! i must remember.

the road is under construction and u never know when would it bifurcate and when it signs a merger with another road!

'yesssss!' i just avoided three craters at gud enuf speed! and a punch in the air!

"saab dhabe pe rokna."

and there we stop he went to have his dinner. i had already had chinese and mix juice supplemented by vitalising red bull!(it was my first time and it dint taste dat good.)

he comes back wid a bottle of mineral water and a good news dat the road is very good for next 50kms.

now its the time to press the throttle cover up some distance. but weather slows me down a bit.

when it clears i find heaven. amravati bypass-its gorgeous! i pick up speed jam the needle to around 90kph and hum a few songs to keep me active.

ah yet another toll booth.

'kitna?'

"10"

a cop comes to my window i get a bit worried because i dont even have a driving license for a LMV and am driving a commercial LMV.

"Sir ye bhaiya ko agle toll booth tak chhod denge?"

'ah! sure!'

the road is great and i push the engine harder. it comes to life and starts chewing the miles.

'bhaiya zara bottle ka seal tod dena.' i hand him over the bisleri bottle.he obliges.all i get for my smooth n swift driving between the toll booths is an exemption at the too booth i drop him there dat means a saving of Rs.10.

its already past midnight and the words of wisdom from the rear seat have tranformed to long chain of snores.i like those when am driving, it makes me feel the person is easy with my driving and the ride is more or less smooth.though he jumped up for few late brakings for most of the part he was asleep. and wen he woke up in between he never forgot to threaten-"main chalaun kya? neend aa rahi hai?"

'arre nahin aaram karo!'

So what makes night driving so fascinating? less traffic,less distractions,no cattles,cyclists and bikers to hinder smooth progress,empty markets and towns,absence of unwanted horn beeps,sense of oneness with darkness. night driving on highways is ultimate pleasure.the downside being poor roads,poor visiblity,drunk overstressed truck drivers,glare of high beam and the 'hool' that truck walas give when u r not punctual in giving low beam or when u r just a fraction late in getting out of their way!one such trailer driver almost got successful in knocking me off the road.he cleared the frontal portion and left whole of the trailer lumbering to my side of the road i did pretty well to negotiate it but it was a fairly close shave!

Jalgaon-68kms.

"saab main thoda aur so loon sawa ghante mein gaadi aapke room par hone ko hona!"

'arre! aisa thode hi hota hai. let me take my time.'

i stick to 85kph thereafter and he sticks to his snoring. its 4am and i am still feeling good enough to continue going on and on. cant say it was for the red bull or anyway i was going to perform the way i was doing.this is something i have dreamt of doing all my childhood,its like dream come true!

they say most accidents take place in the first or the last leg of journey. so i get a bit more cautious and try not to take anything for granted.but still the poor cautionary signals catch me a bit unaware when i get confused mid way a turn that whether it was leading to the left or to the right. in another nano second i am back on track and finish the journey with clinical perfection.

4:53am-mission accomplished!

so this was my first long trip i.e.from jalgaon-chandrapur-nagpur-jalgaon in which i dint do a single mistake. its quite an achievement! atlast i did it.it makes my driver from whom i have learnt driving to say that i completely resemble his driving and am no different!

cheers!

12 hours gone am still hallucinating of passing trucks and the steering inputs! and the hangover was to an extent that i literally lifted my right foot off the foot rest of my bike as in cars to brake!

hope another chance beckons me soon and for an even longer distance!

how about Jalgaon to Muzaffarpur in couple of days? where are my road atlases?

TIPS FOR NIGHT DRIVING

1.Do not overspeed.Never go beyond 85kph. 90 must be the limit on any vehicle on any road and under any environmental condition in India.

2.Do not overdrive i.e. do not ride in speeds higher than the distance u can see.

3.Use dipper(low beam) at night.Now this might be the zillionth time u r reading this.(contless times behind a lumbering truck!) Dipper is not just for others its equally useful for u. Even if the approaching vehicle driver is not putting the lights to low beam you make it a habit to do so. cse at least u will be visible to him and u can be avoided from a crash or misjudgement on his part.

4.Put ur light on high beam 2 seconds before u pass a vehicle so that u will not be blanked by the glare and can se wats in front well in advance.Do not also put it earlier than two seconds because that gives the truck drivers a chance to swerve their vehicle towards u as a mark of protest! I love that! But most of the times I try to avoid that by not giving them chance to even think of doing that.

5.While overtaking the sequence of switching ur light must be as follows-

when u get near to a vehicle keep it low beam.When there is no approaching traffic move to right flash high beam and when u find dat u have been given way to overtake put it back to low so that he is not blinded by the glare in his mirror and can allow ur passage comfortably.

6.While overtaking at night always have extra 6-7seconds in your hand because it becomes very difficult to judge the speed and distance of approaching vehicle in dark.